The Identity Shift That Changed My Life as an Artist

In this episode, Sarah shares the deeply personal evolution of her identity as both a singer and an artist — from being told she was tone deaf, to chasing Broadway dreams, to rebuilding her confidence and nervous system from the ground up. She explores how subconscious beliefs, self-worth, and identity patterns shape everything from vocal growth to relationships, visibility, success, and manifestation. Through stories from her career and personal life, Sarah explains why talent alone isn’t enough — and how lasting change comes from becoming the version of yourself who can actually hold the life you want. If you feel stuck in repetitive patterns, this episode will challenge you to look deeper.

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If you're tired of not making progress and you're ready to be the artist you know you're meant to be, you're in the right place. You're listening to the Singer's Path Podcast. The Path or Performing Artist Training Hub will cover everything, including singing tips that actually work, advice from top industry professionals, and life-changing mindset tips. Out with the starving artists and in with the thriving artist. I'm your host, Sarah Bishop, professional singer, actor, educator, and entrepreneur. I'm not afraid to speak the truth and stop the gatekeeping of quality information so you can actually become the artist you dream of being. So let's get on the path, shall we? Even though we're all on our own journeys, it always helps to have a guide. Hello, hello. Welcome back to the Singer's Path Podcast. It is me, your host, Sarah Bishop. I am here today, of course, doing a TikTok live. Um, I am about to go drive to New York City and have been behind today, even though I promised myself I wasn't gonna get there too late. I have an audition tomorrow, a callback tomorrow. Um, but we're gonna do hopefully a punchier uh episode here. Amanda, my my audio editor is gonna be going on vacation here. So I gotta make sure I get these videos out to her so she can be on her way and have her good day, you know. So today, uh we in the last episode we talked about self-identity. We just touched a teeny bit around money and visibility, um, but really we started to get into singer identity and why maybe the identity you have is like the powerful singer or like the pretty soft singer, right, might be holding you back. And I briefly mentioned in the previous episode that I, you know, maybe I'll share some of like my own chapters with this. And so I'm gonna try to do in the most concise way possible, which might be a tall order, but like again, I don't want to just like go on and on and on about my own experience. I want it to be, you know, expansive for you so that like maybe you see yourself in my experience a little bit more. Um, but I'm gonna kind of talk you through like my evolution a little bit of this self-identity piece and things that were holding me up and how I was able to pivot them. Okay. Right before we get into that, I want to remind you that right now we are having this wonderful artist challenge happening. It's called the inevitable artist activation challenge. Okay. And this is going to really, really amp up uh your ability to really attract the things that you want in your life. So whether that's like a goal of like booking a certain gig or, you know, I just really want to commit to my voice, or, you know, I want to be the lead in my community, right? Someone on the live here just asked if it's, you know, just for intermediate advanced singers. No, this activation is for any type of artist at any level. And it's really about reclaiming your power as an artist. And let me tell you right now, we need you, okay? We need you. The world with AI, everything that's going on, it's so easy for artists to start to like feel bad about themselves, plug into this lack, lack, lack mindset, feel so out of their power, like everything is out of their control. When really it, it, it is the opposite. You guys are so powerful. You are so important in the world. And this activation is really about you guys seeing that, harnessing it, believing it with your full body, mind, soul, spirit, everything about you, and then activating it so that it is projected outwards in this energy so that you can then attract the things that you've been wanted, wanting, right? And of course, it is more geared towards manifestation. If you felt like you just don't really get manifestation or like you tried it and it's a little woo-woo and you're not sure about it. I mean, I have multiple episodes um talking about different stages of manifestation for artists specifically, knowing that most of you are witchy woo-woo, you just don't want people to know about it. Okay, we're a lot of closeted, closeted witchy woo-woo's here. Um, and this is going to be because you're closeted, you might not have had actual resources to do it more accurately and have these manifestations come in and drop in. Okay. So that's also what the inevitable artist activation does, right? It activates the truth behind manifestation, how to make it actually work for you, right? We'll talk a little bit about the neuroscience of it, that's less just about like wishing and believing and hoping and more about deciding and choosing and changing how your brain works and making your nervous system feel safe to do so. So we're doing all of that. It's happening all through May. Okay. I am just so excited to be leading this thing. Um, if you're listening to the podcast, swipe up, join again the inevitable artist activation, link in the bio. Um, and if you're on TikTok live, right, I will be announcing it here in the next 24 hours-ish. Your ability to join. So if you're kind of interested in it at all, you can go on this live, you can go join the wait list, and I will immediately email you on the TikTok live, right? And give you the information here as soon as it's ready to register. Okay. I'm so, so pumped that is happening. Okay. So I'm just going to talk to you a little bit about, I'm kind of piggybacking off of the self-identity episode. And I want to talk about how, you know, just in case you guys relate to my story at all or have any kind of similarities, how your identity as an artist can kind of shift through different stages of your growth. Okay. So when I was actually young, um, first of all, I was more of a dancer. I think I've talked about this before, but I was not a singer for many years until I was like 11, 10 or 11. Like I, my mom actually believed I was tone-deaf and I was not encouraged to sing. It's a big reason why Pigeon Musician exists because like I was told that I was tone-deaf and discouraged from my own parents, and then by some act of God, like it ended up kind of falling into my lap because I wanted to be in a pageant and I needed a talent. My dance teachers were really freaking mean. They said I wasn't a good enough dancer to pay them to have a solo, to have a talent. Okay. And so I really wanted to do this pageant. So I told my mom I wanted to sing. She basically told me I was tone-deaf, that wasn't gonna happen. And then I was like, kind of like, screw you, mom, I'm gonna do it anyway. And I like learned a song by myself and then showed it to her later. And she was like, Oh, I'm so sorry. Like, yeah, you can sing. Okay. Like, that's there's probably another episode where that's more in depth. Okay. But so my first identity around my voice actually started with a little bit like maybe this isn't for me, like, I'm not like a good singer. But there, but the thing was that there was something in my heart that was so strong that was like, no, you're a singer. And I actually used to sing to myself when I was like by myself as a little kid. I would sing the the part of your world song and just like pray to God and hope and pray that like maybe someday I could be a singer, which is like so sweet now that I think about it, actually. Um, but it was a secret, like no one could know, right? And then when I started to be allowed to be a singer, then I took on the identity of like, I'm the pretty singer though. And because this is a new identity that everybody is validating me and seeing me as being a good singer, then okay, well, I guess like I just have to sing pretty all the time, right? And had almost these like unrealistic expectations of like what it was like to learn to sing. Now, I also came from a buttfuck nowhere town, okay, like in the middle of nowhere, Pennsylvania. Actually, everybody does know where it is now, unfortunately, because of the Trump attempted assassination, which was, I mean, we're not gonna get into that, but it's it was wild. That is actually where my hometown was, where that rally was. Do I support that political scene? No, absolutely. I do not, okay. Um, but I was born and raised there, okay. And then moved to New York City. Okay. Um, so anyway, I um so in that town, there was like not there was musical resources, but not like intense vocal pedagogy for like professional singers being trained. Okay. There was only like some classical technique. There was like a lot of backwards ideas about singing and like how to train to sing. And because I was kind of like naturally good at it, I just like kind of felt like I should just stay in my lane. I will say when I was, oh my god, my heart breaks for little Sarah. Thank you. We've done a lot of healing. We hang out with her. She, we let her sing. I'm gonna let her sing tomorrow at my callback, actually, because she gets to be the pretty singer for the callback tomorrow. So that's the other thing that's cool about like developing relationships with these little parts or these little aspects of identities, however you want to say it, right? These little aspects, parts, IFS, these little elements of self that are in our artistry, is then you can like choose to spend time with them and like let them express in the way they want, right? And the other episode, the Krav Maga Sarah that like learned to be powerful. Like sometimes I pull her out. I'm gonna be releasing a sword fight um that I worked on with my friend last year. That that's Krav Maga Sarah. Like you can see the ferocious, you know, we all have many aspects of ourselves inside of us. We all we all encompass the entire human experience, right? So the the cool thing about being an artist is sometimes you let those parts of you get to be expressed, which is really cool. But you have to have relationship with them and start to understand them, right? Which is creating intimacy with yourself, right? So anyway, um, so it's interesting because another identity that later formed, kind of soon after I started to sing, was I became very afraid of singing high. Because if my identity that I finally was being seen and witnessed as being a good singer, which is something I always wanted, I wanted that attention. I wanted to be seen good at my art. My dance studio was horrifically abusive. Like the way that they treated kids was awful. It was also like literally 2000. Like it was so long ago. It was just like a completely different thing. And it was like, this is showbiz, kid. You just gotta be able to take abuse, right? Like that's like it's so toxic. Um, but when I was, you know, then starting to sing more, I realized if I tried to sing above like a C5 or like a D, I didn't know how to sing past that point. Okay. And I see this in so, so, so many people. When I talk about this, guys, one of my most viral videos has six million views. And it's because I'm talking about this thing I'm about to mention. I thought then I was an alto because I couldn't go past a certain point. And it actually wasn't because I was an alto. It was because I just was never taught, no one ever taught me the coordination to get up there. I actually have a gorgeous soprano that's like my best quality, right? That's my that's my gold. Okay. But no one could teach me that. I didn't learn that. I didn't learn my soprano until I was a senior in high school, right about to audition for college. And I learned it immediately. As soon as I had a good teacher, uh Amy Stabner, shout out. She likes really changed my life and my ability to finally have like very high quality like vocal training for the first time, um, at least in my classical world, right? That's why I got into CCM. That's why I got into 10 out of the 12 BFA programs that I had, was because of this woman teaching me to sing soprano. That was always there. Just no one had taught me to do that. Okay. So because I didn't have the resources and I had the identity of I have to be a pretty singer, I sounded like trash trying to sing above a D. So I just didn't do it. Right. I was just like, I don't sing up there. Okay. I was pretty actually pretty good at mixing in my first passage, like A to C sharp, was like pretty naturally okay at that. And so I actually went a really long time with that mindset of like, I'm an alto. So much so that I was like a competitive, like nationally ranked alto. In there was uh an education platform called uh PMEA, Pennsylvania Music Educators Association. And I was like a ranking chair champion of sorts. I was like first chair of the Eastern quarter, right? Like I swept, right? And and when I say for younger singers, right, like, oh, you're a supreme alto, I actually really do encourage younger singers to sing alto because it's so good for your ear and your musicianship to not sing the melody all the time. Okay. So were good things coming from that? Yeah. But the identity of like, I'm terrified to sing high because then I lose the identity that I'm a good singer, not good. Okay. Now, not everybody has resources to have this stuff to train you to be able to do that. Another reason why I make what I make is actually for younger versions of myself. Pillars, a pitch and musician was for young Sarah that was told she wasn't allowed to sing because she was tone deaf. Okay. Pillars is for me in high school and college that, you know, wasn't really taught to mix, right? And advanced mix was like me right out of college, and I needed to like train my voice to like be competitive to compete for alphabet and be able to gender, like not cross bend between uh genres. Like, guys, like when I make this stuff, like I swear to God, like they're like legitimately because of these. I know these are real issues because I have had them. Okay. So these are the many, the many chapters, okay. So anyway, so afraid to sing high. Literally wasn't a soprano, figured it out eventually, went to school. So then when I was at CCM, my identity shifted into I can no longer be the pretty singer. I actually have to be the powerful singer because that's what books. Okay. I have to learn to belt because I went to CCM. Everybody belted. And so what F me up there, A, it was still a classical enforcement. And like I owe so much to my teacher there. So this is like, again, not to say anything that she was doing was incorrect because also I probably wasn't listening, right? The vocal training at CCM is excellent. So, like, again, this is not a reflection necessarily on them. But when my identity was on the outcome of like, I have to be able to sing this way now, that desperation was actually taking me out of my body. It was kind of somatically detaching me from being present to be able to do the subtle changes to do it. Okay. This happened with dancing. I actually, if we're talking about identities, I didn't actually start to connect to my body and like listen to it until I mean, geez, Louis, like three or four years ago. Like, I'm not even kidding. Okay. Now, some schools have like the Alexander technique and they have like so many different ways, right? We had classes at school that I think were trying to teach us that, but like I didn't understand the importance of it. But the truth is, when you're doing really difficult vocal coordinations or you know, you're trying to be an actually really good actor, you need to stay your nervous system needs to be grounded and connected and presence and in your body. Okay. Being a professional artist is just hardcore, parkour nervous system regulation. Can you be radically present under crazy circumstances? Can you be radically present in your body to do very tiny, subtle, nuanced adjustments of air pressure, your pharyngeal narrowing, tilt, right? To make this sound. Can you return to your body to shift sound? Okay. So that's where I was really missing the mark. And Karen was probably trying her best and I wasn't listening because I was so desperate to have the outcome, I wasn't listening to what would actually get me there. I was like kind of a little bit, I think, entitled, where, you know, she might have been telling me this is what I need. And I was like, no, I need to belt, but like wasn't making the connection that what she was telling me to do would get me there. You know what I mean? So probably not a very good student, actually. And she probably worked really hard to help me, and I was just like, right? So in college, like, could I like mix belt high? Like, sort of, but not an efficient way, right? Not in a way that I could do all the time. Okay. Um, someone just asked, the way you used to speak helped you with your singing. Um, yes and no. I don't know. I think sometimes the way I speak is not super great. Like I have to really watch myself. Like sometimes I just talk too loud. Um, so I need to like bring it back and just talk too much, right? Obviously, I'm like doing so much podcasting today, so I need to like watch it. This is why this needs to be abbreviated here. But yes, I mean, generally when you're learning to sing, like it should be derived from your speaking voice, your your actual voice. Okay. So anyway, when I left New York, then the desperation thing got clamped down even more because it was like, oh shit, like now I'm in the real world and I need I need to be able to do this now to get jobs. And then I had not created like a sense of safety in my life outside of like, oh, I'll just get this job and that will fix everything, right? I had not created like stability in my own life. So then it just got all kinds of sidewhacked. And I didn't have the money to pay for voice lessons. Again, another reason why I made pillars in advanced mix, I had that kind of money at the time. Like I had been doing like UCB classes and I'd do like a one-off like thing with the Bob Crack Hour studio or something, and like pay the four or five hundred dollars to like go to one-on-one and like do a casting director class. But really, what I needed was like pillars or advanced mix. I needed a program that would like teach me to condition it in, right? I needed an inner circle. I needed someone to help get my brain under control. Right, get out of this desperate energy, find my power, and then move from alignment, not from being dysregulated and ungrounded. Okay. Because when you're dysregulated, that's what I mean. Being a professional star, to be a star, they are radically, exceptionally present and confident in that presence and complete in that presence. They understand the power that they are the source of the attention. They hold the energy of the audience because they are so present. That's what makes them so exciting. And so, if you can't do that on your day-to-day, there's no fucking way that you're going to go to a final callback for Broadway. And these people behind the table, their whole job is to determine if you can hold the energy of a multi-million dollar company on your shoulders. That's what it is. And so when it got to a point where like I was pushing, pushing, pushing, and listen, my gall and my push got me quite far. Like I was getting to final callbacks for Broadway shows, but I wasn't going my way. Because anyone could see that I was not ready for that. Because my nervous system was not broadcasting that it was mine. My nervous system was going, holy shit, I did this. This wait, I don't know if I could do this all the time. My voice hasn't been conditioned, right? I haven't been practicing. That's why I talk about group class when I talk about the story. I I don't have, I don't actually know if I can mix. What if I actually have to do KD on Broadway eight times a week all the time? Like I'm gonna get notes, right? There was this other identity that then became like, I actually don't feel like I know what I'm doing. That became the big broadcast. I the broadcast was I need this job, I need the safety that I believe that this job will provide me, but also I feel incredibly unsafe actually receiving this job because I don't know if I could do it. Okay. Is that gonna book? No. Could was I saying that? Was I walking around talking like that? No. Could someone feel that on me? Yeah. I'm sure it's dunk. Okay. This desperate energy, this broadcast that your energy in your field is giving is everything. Everything. Meanwhile, at the same audition, I'm in the room with Renee Rapp. You know what broadcast she was given? I don't need this. She was like, she had just like won the Jimmy Award. Incredible. This bitch was effervescent. Okay. 18. I wasn't, I mean, I was like 25 or something. I wasn't that old either, but like 18. Her confidence, her pure her belief in herself. The broadcast that she had was I'm a star. And she is. And so it is, bitch. Like, yes. I was like, yes. Uh-huh. Here's the jump. Okay. Does that make someone says, was she nice? I don't, I didn't really talk to her a whole lot. I just like was dancing next to her. Right. But I could tell I could feel her. Right. She seemed fine. I mean, she wasn't rude to anyone. Um, I do remember her being a little bit uncertain about the dance, because that wasn't really her, it just didn't seem like her major skill. The Reginas that were in there were like dancing wasn't their thing. And I remember Casey Nicola being like, Don't worry. Regina just gets carried around. She doesn't even dance. She like literally, she doesn't even walk. They just carry her. And they're like, cool. That's the inside T. Um, yeah. So anyway, she seemed she seemed nice. I don't know. I again, I don't like know her personally, but like I could tell her vibration was uh I'm a star. And we were all like, Yeah, you are. Okay. Like the people can feel you, okay. So my vibration was not that yet. My vibration was holy shit, this is insane. And if I get this, I don't know what I'm gonna do. And also I need this so badly. Not hireable material. Okay. And I learned this later and I talked about this in other content. What I needed was to practice all the time. And I needed actual training again because my skill set was not being kept up with and wasn't competitive. Like, truthfully, it wasn't for what I wanted, it wasn't. Could I have gotten a core like a chorus gig and a dance. Dancing thing, if I like actually pivoted into focusing a little bit more on dance, yeah, I could have. I could have been the the course girl that maybe covers, but I knew that I didn't really want to do that because I had already done that and it just didn't really feel aligned to me. So then I basically jumped to okay, well, I have to be leads now, like that's what I want, but I wasn't actually doing the work to be competitive to do that. Does that make sense? So, really, what I needed, I needed weekly voice lessons. I needed intense coaching to catch up to where I wanted to go. I needed to relearn how to act because I didn't really learn how to art this ECM. I needed to be in constant audition in film classes. And like, because a lot of people say they want something and then they just like complain about why it hasn't happened yet, but they are neither doing the skill set building that is necessary or the brain work and the energy work to actually be the source that attracts that thing and that people feel safe to give them that thing. People will only feel safe to give you the opportunity that you want when you own 100% mind, body, spirit, nervous system, soul, and you are you are emitting that frequency. That is when that happens, okay. So, moving on. If you need help with this inevitable artist activation, I'm telling you guys, okay? And I'm telling you the story of how I got here. Okay. So at this point, when I'm doing this mean girl with Katie thing, that was kind of like the breaking point where I was like, holy shit, I got so fucking close to my dream. And I remember talking to my agent and they were like, it's not going your way. And I was like, Well, can I like in the future? And they were like, No, like it wasn't gonna ever happen. Um, devastated, devastated. Okay. And so a year after that, I actually that's when I kind of mentioned this earlier. I I was pretty much all time low in all fields, like could not for the life of me like get a boyfriend, any like I was such a doormat. I got treated like shit all the time. I was like such a pitch, pick me, like anxious, anxious attachment everywhere. Okay. And so I started getting real. I actually started getting into this manifestation, like inner work then because I was like, yo, I am at rock bottom. Like I had been dumped by someone that I had been living with. This didn't quite go this way. I was like walking in fear a lot that I was afraid I was gonna get attacked all the time. Uh men treated me like shit. I felt like shit. And I was like, yeah, so this is I'm not doing this anymore. I'm getting too old for this shit. Okay. I think it was like 26 or something. I was like, I can't keep fucking doing this. Like, I'm the problem. It's me. There's something happening. I keep attracting assholes. What the fuck? Right. And it did get to that point where I had to be like, yeah, maybe I'm partially responsible for this or completely responsible for this. What was the other option? That was just gonna continue to blame everybody else for everything and not like take ownership of my own life and then continue to be in the same loop. Like, that's what I'm talking about. That's what we're gonna dismantle here. Like, where are you perpetuating your own bullshit? Okay, and how was it keeping you where you are? And like, how do we stop that shit? Okay. And I actively did that. So for the next year after that experience, I started to do the reprogramming pre-programming of my brain with hypnosis. And I did a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of deep work. But, and we'll talk about this again in the activation. But the universe or whatever's bigger than you, whatever you're co-creating with, right? We'll get into more detail about that, will bring in the things that are most able for you to receive in that moment, right? Or the path of least resistance. Okay, you'll hear other people talk about that. For me, it was way less resistance to actually manifest and bring in life partnership and work on that element, and it bled into other areas of my life. So that's where in my life I got shown was where I needed to do the deeper work first. So I actually ended up rewiring my brain. I am not kidding you, through hypnosis daily. And getting out of like the doormat, low self-worth bullshed. And eventually, like COVID happens. So this is happening. And then when I'm at my parents' house, I ended up finally because I had completely changed my energy. I bet it was COVID, right? I was like, I'm not gonna meet anyone anyway. Like, there's no way now. Like, but like, listen, I'm not also gonna settle for anything less than what I want now. Like, I'm wife material. Like, I know, like I had completely changed who I was in my identity and in my embodiment and was walking in that and had done work to do that and was acting like that finally. And so then I was like, at one point, right at the end of COVID, I was like, Oh, I'll get on Tinder again, I'll try. Right. But like I'm whole within myself and I know I'm not gonna waste my time with anybody else unless they are it, right? And I know exactly what that is. I've learned enough from the experience to know who I want to spend my time with. Okay. And that's when I meant my husband. Because I had finally treated myself with enough respect to honor what I actually wanted. And that was like the first. Well, I had manifested other things before, but this was the first conscious, like, holy shit, like I've met the love of my life. Like after abysmal attempts for a decade, right? So it is like when I'm gonna talk about this with you, like manifestation cannot be without the deeper work, and it also cannot be without conviction and choice. At a certain point, you're gonna have to choose different. I had to choose and see myself honestly and go, yeah, I am the source of this. I can't blame anyone else for me continuing to go out with these awful people. Yeah, okay, hate all men, like what? That's 50% of the population. That can't, it's not even possible. Also, I know I'm friends with men that I love and respect. I'm just not like emotional, I'm not like romantically involved with them. So why is that the better narrative to choose to hate a whole section of the population versus just looking at like, okay, so if statistically there have to be good men out there, maybe the answer is that you're not picking very well. Why? Well, it comes back to identity. I didn't really believe I was worthy of love, right? Just how I didn't believe that like I could actually do that mean girl's job. I didn't believe that anyone would actually love me or want to love me. That's what it came down to. And I had to like do some deep shit. I'd like to do some deep work and then start choosing and acting differently. Okay. So again, that's that's up until a certain point. Um when I when I met Kyle, like everything changed like a whole lot. And then I started having to get through all kinds of identity, like quantum leaping identity shifts around business worth, um, being seen, visibility. And maybe I can do this in like a part two episode of this or something. But this was a huge shift where it was like, holy fuck, I am so powerful. And I also had to get real. And I and listen, when I talk, I know sometimes the way I speak about things is like aggressive. I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, right? If you're still talking to someone that is not giving you the time of day and is not treating you the way that you deserve to be treated, he's not that into you. Stop. Stop it. Why are you doing that? There's something happening, there's some subconscious loop that you like, it's this existential king of it all. You, there's some part of you that believes that like that's what you're worth. Because you would not tolerate it otherwise. If your dominant vibration was I am wife material or I am husband material, or like I am a valuable asset to in a relationship, you will not act like that. Okay. So that's part of getting real too with the artistry piece. Just in that, that happens in your ability to attract other things that you actually want. But you have to know what you're actually broadcasting so that you can change the signal. Because if you're not, if, if you're not aware of what station you're playing, then you're not going to be able to shift it. I want you guys to have autonomy over your life. I want your dreams to come true. Now, does it have to be the most painful, crazy thing ever? No. I think the the bigger things you want, the more visibility, the more money, the more success, the deeper love, the actual connection. That's part of being on this planet is to learn and evolve. And when you actually say yes to the highest timeline that you want, yeah, you're gonna be tested no matter what, because that's why we're here to learn and to actually enjoy our life. But in order to enjoy the things that we are actually meant to do, you have to let other shit go. You have to say no to other versions of being that are not lining up with how you want to be, right? You can't do both. You can't be accepting text from your ex and like doing booty calls at 11 p.m. and attract the love of your life when you're out of integrity of who you actually are. Okay. And the same goes with your art. You cannot be begging and pleading and crying to have a series regular and then, you know, beating yourself up all the time about like how nothing's going your way, and then also not practicing or doing anything to hold you in the skill, right? And just whining about how it's not happening for you, but then not actually practicing and becoming the person that is the series regular, embodying acting, choosing, practicing, being in class, walking around, talking as if you already are, being, right? You you you actually can choose. Like, here's here's the shortest cut. You can choose to be whoever you want to be. But while you have so many internal night dialogues and subconscious stories and thoughts and narratives and things that you have learned in order to operate in your current way, as long as those are still blaring and those are still making the decisions, you cannot actually fully choose. So paradoxically, yes, it can be as simple as you deciding. But with that, you also have to decide and steer of what you're choosing constantly. You can't just one time be like, I'm a star now. I've decided I'm a star, and then continue to listen to the lack. No. If you're like, I'm a star, my my musical is gonna be on Broadway, okay. Then any thought or any action that you're doing that does not align with that, you have to choose differently. And sometimes that means there's other older, deeper hurt and wounds that you might be ignoring that will not shut up until you tend to it, to you love to it. And then when you finally do that, that actually makes the space, and then you can choose more clearly. Does that make sense? So that's exactly the things that we do. We do this in the inner circle membership in great depths. Okay. The inevitable artist activation is like a taste of that, but it's gonna go deep. Okay. The the inner circle that I see is like so transformative and so deep in how you think and carry yourself throughout your your life, not just your artistic life, but like your being, embodying who is the version of you that gets the things you want, right? That is like the way deeper work. But listen, I'm not gonna hold back on this activation, right? But just know it is the intro to that. Okay. It is the intro to looking at yourself in the mirror and going, yeah, like I actually really do want to live the life that I want to. And I'm not gonna like continue to live and spiral on these narratives that are outside of me and continue to engage in this lack and choosing things that actually aren't leading me where I want to go. It's gonna help you get real. It's gonna light a fire under your ass. It's gonna help you reclaim your own power. It's gonna ignite your power and then make you a magnet and actually in alignment with what you want, or at least getting clear on what's blocking it. Okay. So, with all of that, I do have to hop off because I have to go to New York City. Um, maybe I'll remember to do a part two to this so you can see kind of the more recent growth around like visibility and money. Guys, oof. Again, the more like you get in your life or the more like your manifestations come true, it's just like other levels of regulation, other things. Okay, so it's like anyone that wants to live this full joyful life, yes, at any moment you can choose joy. And that is actually often the answer. It isn't choice, but there's also grief. Joy and love and grief are intertwined. Okay, there is no grief without love, there is no love without grief. Okay, so as you follow the love and the joy in your life and you're living in alignment, there will be things that fall away. And sometimes that involves grief. And so if you want that, right? It's also like it's like the dynamics of life, right? Like we know that we can't really hear loud without the softs, right? We can't really see light without the dark. It's the same. Is either bad? No, it's just being alive. And so, really, it comes down to your system's capacity to hold the paradoxes of being alive. Can you hold all of this all together and enjoy living a full life? Enjoy ascending and and and moving each moment at a time to enjoy the things you're here to do and hold yourself in the dark. Okay. Sorry, we went real deep. Okay. Where are we gonna be doing that more? All right. Um, I love, love, love talking about this and doing this work. I hope you related to this somewhat or just like, you know, maybe just started getting you to think about some stuff. And I'm really not in the business of isolating doing deep creative work from doing the center work. Yeah, they are not independent from each other. They are, they are linked. Okay. I think, because I believe that you guys are really capable and powerful of doing some amazing things. And I'm gonna treat you as such. And in that case, this is part of the work. Okay. I love you. I adore you. I think you're so wonderful for sticking around here, especially on the live. I always love having people to actually talk to. So thank you, thank you, thank you so much. Um, this is the Singer's Path Podcast. If you're listening to the live, okay, go check it out, follow us, Singer's Path over here. Um, and um, again, we are gonna be doing this challenge. Swipe up, join. It's 33 bucks. Okay. If you're watching the live, like you'll be able to get it tomorrow. Just join the wait list that's in the link. And then we'll give you the link tomorrow as soon as it's ready. If you're listening to the podcast right now, you can join immediately. Get in there, enjoy. I'm so excited to connect with you. Um, and I can't wait to see you in there. If you love this podcast, please share it. Leave us a five-star written review. Um, I love seeing your reviews. Um, obviously, if you don't like it, don't leave a review. 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